Sweet Melissa: Ignorance is not Bliss (Book One 1)



I'm not a celebrity or a model.  I'm not rich or famous.  I'm a junkie and I will do anything to get my next fix...

The author was a very stubborn, naïve, and gullible young woman with a very bad case of low self-esteem. At 18 year's old, and from an upper middle class suburban family she was always known as the fat sister. She was the black sheep of the family, and the trouble maker.

Believing herself to be stupid, fat, ugly, and incapable of being loved the author leaves the safety, security, and love of her family. She goes out on a journey of her own to try and find love, and acceptance elsewhere.

Her deepest desire is to fit in somewhere. Anywhere.

The author encounters a variety of potential suitors that she cannot resist. She finds that once their true intentions are exposed, that these exquisitely wrapped packages reveal the contents of deceitful, controlling, and abusive men.

The author gets lost in a vicious cycle of addiction, and abuse.

Is it too late?

She has already opened, and walked through the door of her self-produced nightmare.

Her senses are dulled, and she is emotionless.

Has she lost her soul, or did she sell it?

Her stubbornness is holding her hostage to the fact that she will always learn things the hard way. There are times when death seems like the only answer.

After decades of losing time and time again, the author finally submits to the fact that she is out of control, and that her life is unmanageable.

That is her reality.

Is there any hope for change after almost thirty years of addiction, and crime?

What could possibly happen to the author that would make her change her life in every single way?

What is it that turned the author into the woman she was always meant to be?

This is MY story.

I broke out into a cold sweat, and tried to cry. The tears would not fall, because I knew in my heart, that I had no one to blame for my situation but myself. I came from a good, loving family. I was never beaten or abused. We went on family vacations every summer. My childhood years could not have been more perfect. What was wrong with me?

I looked closely into the mirror, and saw the dark circles beneath my eyes. I was underweight, and my long blonde hair was thinning. I looked away from the mirror quickly, and sat on the cold, tile floor of this cheap motel bathroom.

My hand shook a bit as I held the spoon full of heroin. I cooked it up with a blue lighter. I dropped in a small piece of cotton, and drew up the liquid with a syringe. I injected the heroin, and fell slowly back against the wall. The tile was no longer cold, and life did not seem so hopeless anymore.

Sweet Melissa is a six book memoir series. It is the author's story about her life-long struggle with addiction to drugs, her downward spiral towards self destruction, and finally her recovery. Follow the author down the dark path of substance abuse and the lifestyle that goes with it.

In Book One, the author gets involved with prostitution and drugs. She encounters a variety of people, and finds herself addicted to heroin. With that addiction she falls deeper and deeper into a hole of which she believes will never end. Her self-esteem diminishes, and her life seems worthless.

This is a life-long struggle with substance abuse. Heroin and substance abuse cloud the mind from thinking properly. It deadens the senses, and strips the soul. It puts you in places you could never imagine in your wildest dreams.

This is a memoir straight from the heart of the finally recovered.